risk our friendship

-          Why didn’t you tell me?

-          How could i? When he kissed me I didn’t know you guys had history and frankly we weren’t friends yet. And when we became friends, you started telling me about him and I was surprised. I didn’t know what to say and after a while I just stopped thinking about him. It was in my past and I didn’t want to risk our friendship for something that stupid. He wasn’t worth it. Telling the truth meant losing you and I need you as my friend so I lied. That doesn’t make be a good person but I just made a wrong decision that I tried to forget about.

more satisfaction than pain

I realized that when you’re the only one working hard for something it isn’t worth it.

And if you’re working THAT hard you just have to let go and find something else to fight for.

Something that gives you more satisfaction than pain

You happened

-          What happened? One moment we were talking about prom and the summer and the other you were as cold as the ice queen.

-          You happened. You had these big plans for us. You saw us together a year from now and I wasn’t ready for it. I think I was never ready and telling you… hurting you was beyond me. I couldn’t.

-          So you lead me on for months, because that wouldn’t hurt me. I guess you were wrong.

absolute

Truth is i don’t know if there is anything absolute in this world anymore.

I used to think that honesty was, that telling the truth was one of the most important things in the world.

But that’s just true in theory.

One day grow up and realize that life is really complicated.

You realize that 1 + 1 isn’t 2.

Nothing is just right or wrong anymore.

There are only in-betweens.

our relationship

I'm sad because i can't understand our relationship.

Sometimes i feel like we're friends.

Sometimes I feel like we're more than friends but sometimes i feel like I'm just a stranger to you.

one more night

If you miss me too, then come to me.

I want one more night.

I want to sleep next to you one more time.

I want to feel your heartbeat.

I want your head on my chest and my arms around you.

I want to feel your skin against mine.

I want to pretend, for one night, that we didn't fuck it all up.

That you're still mine.