You're not my friend

Oh, just stop
it. You're not my friend.

We never
were.                                    

Besides
friends don't look at each other like we do. 

a fraction of what i desire

Joanna: "you really touch me whenever you feel like it
don't you?"

Alex:: "no i
don't. I touch you a fraction of how often i'd like to"

when you were miles away

There are things i'd like to tell you some but i know they'd hurt you.
I'd like to tell you about all those boys.
They meant nothing compared to you but they were here when you were miles away.

we've changed

Let's face it... we've changed. 

We all changed. 

Somewhere between summer ending and school
starting, 

we've all gone in our own directions.

 Hearts were
broken, friends diminished, new love started and new people came into our
lives. 

We no longer spend all of our time in our circle of
friends, we no longer talk for hours about nothing at all. We've changed --
some for the better, some for the worse. 

Some of us are finding love and others are trying
to let go.

Even though we've changed, we all know that even
though we're all finding our own place in the world, that when we find out
love, when we let go of a love, when the tears fall, or the happy smile spreads
across our face... we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy
world takes us and no matter what happens, nothing will ever change so much to
the point that we're not all friends forever.

You really love him

"You really love him, don't you?"

A simple psychological question. 

Not a single name was mentioned. 

But suddenly, someone came into your mind as you
read it.

loveD you

Let's get something straight here.
I loved you.
I loved you with everything I had in me.
But it was never good enough for you, I was never good enough for you.
I would have done anything to keep you by my side, but you pushed me away for so long that I gave up.
I'm walking away from this and I can promise I'm never looking back.
It's going to hurt, and it's going to be tough, but I can't keep on going with the way things are between us.
It's over and it's been over for the longest time.
We both just didn't want to believe it.
As much as it killsto say this, we aren't meant to be in each others' lives anymore.
We aren't the same two people we used to be.
We've changed.
You're not the same boy I fell in love with.
That boy, well, he's gone.
So what's the point of loving him if he doesn't exist anymore?
I wanted to bewith the guy who fought for me more than anyone had ever, the guy who led me to believe when I was with him, I had nothing to worry about, the guy who I thought was different from all the rest.
But it turns out, I was completely wrong.
You left me so many times when I needed you the most.
Every time I begged you to stay, you always found a reason to leave.
So now, as you sit here to beg me not to let go, I, for once, can't think of a reason to stay.
Yeah, I do love you, but being in love with you isn't enough anymore.
Our love isn't enough anymore.
I have to walk away from this, even though it's probably going to destroy me.

memories of him

She holds onto the memories of him trying not to
let go, but sooner or later, she'll learn it'll be the best to just forget and
not hold on.  

This time he's really not coming back. 

penis enlargement pills

It looks like those penis enlargement pills worked. 
You're twice the dick you were yesterday. 

idea of you

I was sitting her wondering if i every really loved
you.

I realized that i did like you very much but i
loved the idea of having you. 

Of having someone i would pour my heart out
to. 

Of having someone kind enough to ask me how my day
was and what he could do to make it better. I was in love with the idea of you
but i never really love you or loved us together.

 I knew i would have woken up in the middle of
the night asking myself if it would really be enough for me.

2 years 7 months 8 days 11 hours 38 minutes ago

September. Girl meets boy. Girl falls in
love. 

December. Boy falls in love. 

January. "i love you" 

March. She cheats.

April. First fight. She cheats. He never
knew. 

Juin. More in love than ever. 

August. He cheats. Second fight. 

September. Sex talk. 

Oktober. Suddenly no contact. Questions. She kisses
another boy. December,januari,februari,march,april,... Memories unerased. Mixed
feelings. Hurt. Tiars.

September. 2 years. Still hurt. Contact. Not the
same. Proper talk. Promises. 

Oktober, november, december Contact-no
contact-contact. 

Januari Broken promises. Februari,march,april. 2
other guys. Still no change. A broken heart trying to heal. Waiting for forever.

words to hurt you

Eventhough i want to find the words to hurt you
just as much as you hurt me i don't wanna be just another cliché. 

What we had was real. 

At least to me. And the way it ended was typical. 

Just like in those romantic comediesnwe used to
mock. 

Sometimes you have to grow up and realize love
isn't enough, sometimes distance wins. 

That's why i will always remember our teenage love
affair.

that boy they talked about

The day you introduced yourself, I realized you
were the boy my friend always talked about. 

The one who could give you one look and make your
day. 

The one who makes you happy, just being in the same
room as them. 

The one you can't take your eyes off, when you've
been sneaking glances all afternoon. 

The one boy who could break your heart, before he
was even yours.

people don't change

Well I’d like to say yes but honestly ….
I don’t really think people can change, you know, at the end of the day you are who you are and it’s probably who you’ve always been

stranger in the background?

You ever look a picture of yourself, and see a
stranger in the background?

It makes you wonder how many strangers have
pictures of you. 

How many moments of other peoples life have we been
in. 

Were we a part of someone's life when their dream
came true or were we there when their dream died. 

Did we keep trying to get in? 

As if we were somehow destined to be there or did
the shot take us by surprise. 

Just think, you could be a big part of someone
elses life, and not even know it.

my philosophy on dating

Here's my philosophy on dating: It's important to
have somebody that can make you laugh. 

Somebody you can trust. somebody that, you know,
turns you on...  

And it's really, really important that these three
people don't know each other

tired of you

oh boy, what i wouldn't have given to get tired of you

what you want

the stuff you never see coming is exactly what you want

goals have changed

Sometimes we fight for something, only to discover by the time we get it, our goals have changed. 
For some,it's too late. 
The lines have been drawn. 
And the damage has been done. 
But other times you get the thing you always wanted. 
Only to find out it isn't what you really needed

stop my fingers all the time

do you know i have to stop my fingers all the time.
i have to make the choice not to say, hello Alex.
How are you?
Where are you?
What are you doing?
Do you want to meet me...wherever you want for dinner?
This friday?

what love is for everyone

I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me: love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.

People do lie

You're right. 
People do lie, and cheat, and stab you in the back. 
There will be people who use you, and don't love you even though they say they do.
 But you can't let that stop you from living. 
Because there are people out there who do love you, and would never hurt you. 
You have to find those people en keep them in your life forever

Emotions are like whiskey

Emotions are like whiskey, it's really good, but only in small proportions

forget your troubles

They say it's easy to forget your troubles when the weather's warm. But all it takes is one fall breeze to blow reality right back in your face