makeshift-puzzle: 09.11

Friday

Tuesday

You know what I think hurts the most?
The feeling of being replaced. It’s like no matter what you did, it wasn’t enough.
And no matter what you do to try and capture their heart again, doesn’t seem to work.
And you’re suddenly left thinking that you’ll never be enough.
And a sudden sadness captures your heart that never really leaves.

when it's over

You remember everything when it's over, so maybe next time you should forget when it starts

the same mistake twice

You can't make the same mistake twice.

The second time you make it, it's no longer a mistake; it's a choice.

Take a step back

Take a step back.

Look at yourself.

You are human.

You are beautiful, you are so beautiful.

And you can be anything.

You can be everything.

Do not hate because somebody broke your heart or because your parents split up, your best friend betrayed you, the kid down the street call you fat, stupid, worthless.

Do not concern yourself with things you can't control.

Cry when you need to, then let go when it's time.

Don’t hang onto painful memories just because you're afraid to forget.

Let go of things that are in the past.

Forget things that aren't worth of remembering.

Stop talking things for granted.

Live for something, live for yourself.

Fall in love.

Fall out love.

Do things over until you know what it really is to love someone.

Question things.

Tell people how you really feel.

Sleep under the stars.

Create, imagine, inspire.

Share something wonderful.

Make something beautiful and then destroy it.

Meet new people.

Make someone's day.

Follow your dreams.

Live your life to its full potential.

Just live, damn it.

Let go of all the horrible things in your life and just fucking live.

And one day, when you're old, look back with no regrets.

Thursday

Overthinking ruines you

Overthinking ruines you.

Ruins the situation, turn things around, makes you worry, and just make things worse than it actually is.

you've found your best friend

How do you know you've found your best friend?
When you are ready to talk to them about anything, even though they know everything about you already

Sunday

you used to be a sweetheart

you used to be all right
you tell yourself you love me
But you're creeping every night
When I met you at the party
And you told me i was pretty
you were honestly just trying to score
But i made you wait a week
Just to kiss me on the cheek
Now you say it's breaking your heart to break mine
you said you loved me in the summer
But will you love me in the fall?
I thought you wasn't like the others
Guess you're an asshole after all
you'd be lying if you said you felt bad
When did you become one of the bad guys?

like before

You said you wanted us to be like before
That you wanted us to talk for hours
You said you needed that and you needed me.
So how come 4 days later you are nowhere to be found.
Some people say our relationship is like a movie.
It was love on first sight, it evolved to be something bigger, something we couldn't live without for 2 years.
Maybe that's why i can't convince myself that after all we've been through this is the end.
Goodbye.

there I was, looking at him

there I was looking at him
as if he was the most beautiful thing on earth
I imagined the kid he was holding was ours
I found myself thinking of the future by his side
That’s when I saw that i could really be happy with him
He was just the one for me
We had our differences and we completed each other
It felt like a dream come true
I realized I was really lucky
Lucky to love him
Lucky he loves me

when we think about the past

Have you ever noticed that when we think about the past we sometimes unconciantly only remember the good times.
Like in a relationship.
We remember the walks through the park, the dinners watching moonlight, the continous laughters,...
Our mind makes us remember the good times as if it was a reference for farther relationships.
Cause who really wants to remember fights, arguments and mistakes you make?

I'm not that kind of girl

I'm not that kind of girl.
The one who planed her whole marriage when she was little.
Heck i didn't even want to get married.
I still don't.
But when i think about marriage i can't see anyone else standing next to me on the aisle but you.
I am the first one to be suprised by this.
I never thought i could miss someone like this.
You changed something in my life.
And for that thank you!

I'm not in love with him

I'm not in love with him, you know ...

Actually, i don't think so, i want him to be mine, but i don't want people to look at us saying "they're together"
I don't care about that.

No, it's a strange thing, a more special feeling, something i can't explain, something that perhaps eventually will destroy me.
See, i always think about him, when he talks about her, his best friend, i'm jealous.
Not because i think there's something between them, but simply because i know that i'll never mean as much to him as she does, that he'll never talk about me like he talks about her.
When he's not there, i ask myself where he is, if he's alright, if he's in trouble, if he still has that gorgeous smile on his lips, if he's safe, if he isn't playing with fire.
You know, when i look at him, i'm hurt sometimes, i would like him to commit, to care for me.
I don't want moonlights, passionate kisses, sexy letters, hundreds of texts a day, dates.
I just want him to truly love me.

That when someone talks to him about me, his eyes shine.
I want him to know i'm here, i want him to come at 4 am knocking on my door, even if he's wet, even if it's raining, even if i have to wake up early; even if he acted like a jerk a couple of hours before and who knows, even if he's sick or if he killed someone.

I would just like him to care for me...

You know, that feeling...

This thing in me that tells me that i'd be capable of jumping in front of a car for him....

the people that you could talk to

I used to think that friends were the people that you could laugh and talk to.

Now I know that friends aren't that, they're the people that touch your hearts.

You could spend hours with them doing nothing at all and it can be the best time of your life, just because it was with them.

They're the people you can share your secrets with, cry with, laugh with, and just have fun with.

They don't judge you or make you change.

They accept you exactly as you are.

They look at you and they see a great person, one they love spending time with.

You all share something in common and are tied together by memories, tears, laughs, and smiles.

You're tied together by love for the other.

Friendship is the strangest but greatest thing in the world

a strange feeling

I try not to think about him, i don't quite know what i feel. 
It's a strange feeling.
It would kill me not to talk to him but also i know it's best not to.
I know we would have been great together,but maybe it wasn't the moment.
I still see us seating in the chair at your place,

fighting just for fun! you were playing the guitar and i was pretending to listen,
but i was just looking at your face,
realizing that was all i could ever want in this life.
It was just in front of me :)
That was enough for me.
I can't imagine that because of her that just have to be a memory.

introducing her to you

I regret alot of things but i really regret introducing her to you
I didn't know you would like her that quick
I think you gave up to easily
I tried everything
But i will always remember you
You were my first love
I still search your qualitys in others guys
I hope one day it will stop.

I WANT YOU

I never felt anything like this.
I want you to be my first.
I want you to be the father of my child.
I want you to be the one i wake up next to for many years.
I want us to still feel this way in 5, 10 maybe 15 years.
I want us to still be friends even if we break up.
Actually I WANT YOU, all of you for so long that i can have you

the hardest part is letting go

At the end, the hardest part is letting go.

Letting go of all the great times you shared,

the memories you made and the ones that were yet to come.

You wonder what it could have been like

if only it had worked out.

You see it in your mind,

and how it could have been.

But you'll never know.

You do anything to make it happen,

but nothing works.

You are finally forced to let go, and to try to move on.

But deep inside your heart you never really let go,

and you never will.

Because someone who had such a huge impact on your life,

is someone you will never forget and will always be in your heart.

Forever.

do you want me here

Let me get this straight, do you want me here? 
As I struggle through each and every year. 
And all these demons, they keep me up all night. 
They keep me up all night.